Family

Ok so I am goin to talk about something personal... My FAMILY problems... me & my mom are normally the best of friends but lately she been on some real humbug... Jus like any mother & daughter yes we argue & bicker from time to time... well last year (technically year before last 2010) on Thanksgiving her & the man I call my dad decided they was goin to get a divorce 2 weeks before their 17 wedding anniversary... She got over that & started dating... She dated a few people but then found one she really liked... so after 2 or 3 weeks she moves him into the house & things was coo... Then his 29 year old son comes & moves wit us... still coo for about a few weeks... Me & her BF gets into it over a dumb a** CD cause he want to be drunk so next day he come ballin his eyes out cryin sayin how sorry he is and blah blah... whatever... some more weeks go by and a bunch of food is comin up missin & she comes to me like I am suppose to kno where it is goin... but mind u his son is like 400-500lbs... so fast-forward my bathroom off of my room the floor starts gettin wet so she comes & ask me about that but the funny thing is as soon as I noticed it I went & told her, but now she see's it on her own she expect me to kno... my bathroom is only so big now... so I thought maybe his son was pissin on my floor cause he was so big so I figured maybe he can't see his thang in there cause it is so small... so I tell him & he stops using it but my floor is still gettin wet... His son moves out & we start workin on the bathroom & the poll for the water to go down in is smashed & she looks at me & tells me u kne he was to BIG for ur bathroom u should have told him when he moved in not to use it... How was I suppose to kno it would not support him... so we been arguing over dumb stuff... Normal ish we get over it in seconds... Now a few days ago I have a meeting wit the head guys of the organization I work for & she all drunk & talkin crazy... I let it slide... Now we get home havin a good conv & out of no where she jus starts doggin the hell out of me... & I laugh cause I think it's funny... she get drunk & do/say stupid ish... she starts saying how I am not worth nothing I am not going to ever do anything with my life when she see my face she gets mad cause she don't like me & how I don't talk to her about whats goin on wit me... now by this point I am pissed but I jus keep laughin & I even agreed wit her... & that made her even madder... cause she tryin to get a mad response from me & I wont give it to her... & she so use to me goin off right along wit her & then moving out & being away for months & some times years then come & finds me & begs me to move back... this has been all my life now but she has never said no hurtful stuff to that extent before (normally I would have went there wit her) but after so many life experiences I have learned that don't NO ONE make u MAD, U make U MAD... & out of all of the pain & hurt I have endured throughout my life... I refuse to ever let anyone else knock me off my square... besides I have so much positive things going on in my life that is feel like she is mad at her self cause she failed her dreams, when I am living mine out... I have been to college & graduated... Now I am on my way back not to say that I have one job & looking for another... but she don't see nothing that I am doing... It's like I can't do not good in her eyes & her BF has a lot to do wit all of this, because he don't want me or my lil sis here... he wants my mom to himself... he thinks she spend to much time wit us... now my lil sis is 13 u can't do that to her... me ok cause I am 22... All I really can say is I don't get it... I am lost...    

Married Men

Now my friend stopped by & started to talk all about her "NEW LOVE"... ok it's coo... She tellin me how he take her out to dinner at fancy restaurants & the trips he been takin her on... So I am like that's whats up, finally found u a man wit a real job that happens to be good... She shows me this big rock on her finger & said they are engaged to be married... So of course I am all happy for her... Then she hits me wit the okie-dok "His wife wont even kno what hit her"... Now when I hear this a BIG RED FLAG goes off in my head & I started to laugh at her ((OK, I kno that was not the nices thing to do, but it was funny to me.)) So after I stop hysterically laughing I ask how long they been married... Now when she told me they have been married for 17 years & got 3 kids... I asked her what make u think he really goin to leave something he has invested into for that long... She had the nerve to say cause we in "LOVE" so I laughed some more & said if he do leave her what makes u think he wont do the same thing to u... She had NO answer to that... Now I don't tell her to leave him alone cause that's not my place but has a friend I jus want her to think smart. ((Now she probably wont do that)) But she kne when she was comin to my house to tell me all of this ish, I was goin to laugh... 

Ok... so I feel a lil slow cause I am still tryin to get a hang of Tumblr & this here... my lil sis got me tryin these things out... now she want me to try sodahead... can I get these one's first...

Now that I am goin through all of the things in my room... I realized that I got a lot of ish that I jus don't need... so I am goin through all of the stuff puttin them in bag & I get to the 4th bag and start wondering why I even had half of the stuff & had no good answer for it...

So I am talkin to this guy about colleges... & he talk to much... when can I ask questions cause he is talkin about absolutely nothing that has to do with what I need to kno... Then goin to ask me about a field I don't even care about & expect me to jus tell him what I kno about it... but the thing still is... this has nothing to do wit what I want to kno... so I tell him & and he goes right back to talkin about it... He ended up talkin to the dead noise...